Saturday, September 24, 2005

Perfectly Impermanent.

The self goes out to find its perfect match, trying to look for that some one who embodies perfection and hoping to accidentally trample upon a god of sort, a being coming down from the zenith of mt. olympus to carry the self, bring it home and make it its own. Perhaps, it could have been a happy ever after, except that...

... the idea of perfection, though defined relatively, remains almost always superficial. Perfection appears only at the initial phase of romance but as the one reveals itself further to the self, it'll reveal things that might've perceived by the self to be perfect, at first. But in the end, the self will surely realize that the one is not what it envisions it to be, in its actuality, but perhaps, a de-emphasizing creature of certain flaws and imperfections derived from its very nature, from its 'humanity' or 'human-ness.' Incrementally, the one reveals itself to be some one ordinary, especially when set against some other ones who appear to be 'more' perfect.

So the self finds itself wanting, perplexed by the unprecedented circumstance beyond its grasp, and eventually the self, consciously or not, finally finds itself letting go of the one and getting out from its clasp, and looking earnestly for somebody else, for some one, another one, who embodies the definition of perfection - of more perfect.

And so the cycle of searching and leaving goes on...

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

how fitting it is that when i had my sentiments written in my blog about the imperfection of the person i love, then i have read this post of yours..indeed, the cycle continues but for me, i don't search for another one, rather i dream that the one i chose would search for himself and when he have found himself, i'd like to hope that he would search for me...pathetic? i know...thanks for dropping by...

GUS said...

perhaps the problem is that the SELF is looking for something that is not existing... perfection is not man's quality... not even a demi-god otherwise they wouldnt be called demi. the SELF should acknowledge the flaws and learn to accept that as part of humanity. our flaws makes us beautifully unique from each other. maybe ones the SELF understands that, the ONE, anyone, will ne the PERFECT ONE.

Anonymous said...

kuya jan is that you?

Anonymous said...

thanks for tagging... i just wish that i could find that person who'll one day i'll let go eventually...