Day 07: The Reason for Everything

Anyone who holds on to life just as it is destroys that life,
but if you let it go.. you'll have it forever, real and eternal
John 12:25

He is giving me so many reasons to believe. Beyond sheer reasoning and human understanding, I bequeath that is all for Him-for His Glory. As I accept Him back in my life, like a lost sheep going back to his Master, every single thing is gradually making sense. Bit by bit, each reveals its own purpose seemingly aligned to a larger, cosmic one. I may not be able to fathom them right now but I know time will reveal them manifestly.

Not so long ago, I was too caught up with my on world, too jaded seeking my own truth. I was driven to excel and to amass things that lure my senses. But even without Him, I have always convinced myself not to put everything into my head. In fact, I hated the system I thrived. I repulsed it. I didn't want to be consumed by it. Rationalization has been my defense; God was a mere concept that puts order in the universe. He wasn't my personal God back then.

But in a span of a month outside what I used to think as my comfort zone, I opened my eyes. There, I saw the reasons I have been looking for. Certainly, this process of alignment will lead me towards living my life for His glory, under His unending grace. And I am more than willing to stand up for the challenge.

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It was only today that I have felt a meaningful connection with Gibson's Passion of The Christ. Never did I imagine before that such a linkage between the faculties of man and a media production could be so intensely powerful and revealing. Perhaps, before, I've just seen it as a mere depiction of Christ's sufferings captured in film for critical viewing purposes. But such vivid a portrayal bared so much depth that reasons cannot assume to encapsulate. The picture spoke straightly to the heart, perhaps to one's spirituality. Every strike of the lances and spears that ran deeply to Jesus' skin and flesh is a manifestation of a love so pure and so real. And in every jolt I had, upon seeing it, I couldn't help but appreciate more such ultimate sacrifice. It was my emotion that is seeing and connecting. It was my humanity speaking before God, saying how thankful I am to have met Him again. It was I who changed my mind before; it was I who has the capacity to change it back again. And this time, I won't make His ultimate sacrifice go into waste down the drain.

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And so I pray,
Jesus, I believe in you and I receive you.